Another not so great day. Didn’t feel well most of the day. Kinda went thru a string of emotions and none of them good – self pity, anger, fear, sadness – all within a few hours. Talked with my middle one a little and she reminded me to not base the future on this ONE day. She also reminded me that is was OK to feel everything I was feeling. I think I had sort of removed myself from the situation when I would talk to people about it. Like it was just “medical stuff”, or like it was happening to someone else, I don’t know but, now that it’s been a month, now it’s getting personal and I’m left dealing with the REAL stuff, the emotional stuff, the heavy stuff.
By evening I was feeling better and after B and I talked it may have had something to do with the Shingles vaccine than anything else because he said he was feeling the same way at least physically as I was feeling. We both got one yesterday. So maybe it was just “a day”, I guess we will see what tomorrow brings.